Has it been a month?!?

I really don't know where the time has gone.. oh wait, yes I do: Maya turned four months and now has entered the cutest, most interactive joyful stage and has taken us over with her baby hypnosis.

She discovered the fine art of copying me -- Case in point, I would stick out my tongue and make a blhhhhh noise, which she quickly learned how to do, copied me and got about 4 quarts of drool on her shirt. She now does this on her own for instant entertainment. Sometimes when she catches my eye she calls our "blllhhhhh!" with her bubbly-drool noise. It's as if to say, "hey there mama, I see ya, we be good together."

People have asked about how it is with two, what we think about the span of four years between Maya and Ella. I have come to the conculsion that it is easier for me (Ella is more independent, can do most everything I need for help) and harder for her (as compared to if she was 1 or 2). She becomes intensely jealous towards Maya at certain times, like in the morning when I am putting Maya in her car seat. She'd ramp up, start whining, and then, for example today, she marches over and stomps her foot on Maya's stomach. Tonight when I was putting her to bed, I asked her about this, why this time in the morning. She said she was jealous that Maya got to have special toys each morning for her carrier and she didn't get any special toys. I was both deeply saddened and hopeful that we had connected. I told her I would make a special effort each morning to get a special toy for her for the car ride to school. Hopefully I can make more of a concerted effort to notice her, the impact Maya has on her, and connect vs. get frustrated and annoyed by her. She's only human, after all and I love her with all my heart.